The Gift GOD Gave You: Diamond In Your Hand

When I talk to my guy friends and listen to them tell me all about their dating troubles and hardships...sometimes I get distracted by other things lol

Why?

Because, my guy friends always go for the slutbag, princess, or deceiver. But when they meet a woman of caliber they treat her like shit. So, I have turned off my sympathy to their situations.

I tell them all the time to be careful and to be vigilant, take their time. Don't just accept the first invitation given out. But they still choose to do what they want to do.

And then when they get hurt, stomped on and spit on somehow they find my ears and expect for my ears to give a shit.

Well, I don't... anymore. Some might think that is coming from a bitter place but that is actually coming from a "Let GOD handle" it place. I'm done talking. I will say what I have to say. Then I will let it be from here on out.

I have better things to do with my time than to try get them to see that GOD put a diamond in their hand that they should appreciate and take care of but instead they choose to pick up pebbles...

When they do that, they are saying with their actions that they don't care about the gift God gave them and that it is not good enough.

But I learned that when you don't appreciate the gift God gives you, not only will he take it away but he will always fix it so that either you will have trouble finding another diamond or that every time you think you found a diamond it really is a pebble.

I'm done with men not appreciating me.

That is to say that this friendship I have with my bestfriend is great at times, but mostly I know that he isn't fully aware of who I am and what I stand for. But I recognize that, and that is my own distress to myself. So I take full responsibility for the stress. I get bored and seek him out to entertain me. Deep down inside I know that I want him to ask me out, but he is steady picking up pebbles when GOD place me in his hand to be his diamond.

It is sad, but it is true and when I get tired of the one-sidedness I will move on because I deserve better. Not because I'm better than him or anyone else for that matter but because GOD deserves for me to treat this body(temple) better by being with a man that not only LOVES HIM but also recognizes the love and light of Christ in me.

 

Scientist vs. Model

I think modeling is fun. A person can learn a lot from the experiences that you get through meeting people in the modeling industry. But, a lot of young women are so hungry for fame, money and power that they miss the life lessons entirely. Then you have people who seem to be created for the sole purpose of selling you a dream in a hand basket. They don't care if you really make it or not as long they look good trying to get you to the top or as long they get some kind of reward out of the deal.

 

 





The people on your "team" those who manager your career or have anything to do with making you money are suppose to have your best interest at heart. But a lot of times they get sidetracked and want to mold you into the image that they conjured up in their mind of how you should be, what you should look like, and essentially who you should be.

I'm blessed enough to not have to deal with any of that, but when I first started modeling I certainly felt that pull. I certainly fell that I was betraying who I was. I wasn't comfortable in my skin when I first started. They wanted me to just take a pill and "magically" wake up feeling sexy and confident and free from inhibitions. But, that was the "Paris Hilton" mentality that all the girls seemed to fall in at the time.

God had other plans for me.

And after I decided that modeling wasn't where my heart was, I chose to sing. I took voice lessons and that's where I started building my confidence to sing in front of people.

I now look at everything I do as a confidence builder.

Even though I think modeling is fun, I think I would much rather be a scientist. IF there was a way that I could combine being a model and a scientist then I would because that way I could have the best of both worlds.

 

 



In being a scientist I'm free to use the gift of intelligence that God gave me. No one can mask it, nor mold me to fit their thoughts, unlike in modeling where if you don't wear the designers clothes or you can't fit in them then either you don't get to be in the show or you don't get to wear their outfit and you miss being in the scene. There is too much demand in modeling. To look a certain way and or to act a certain way.

And honestly I just want to say FUCK IT! I act and do what I want. If you don't like it kiss my ass. But in the modeling world you can't do that. Because as a model you need people to like you, so they will want to work with you. That's another reason why being a scientist is more appealing. I don't need anyone to like me nor think I'm cool nor beautiful. Heck! they don't even have to think that I'm smart. As long as I have facts to back up what I state and or consistent patterns of truth. My theory is valid and it say the potential to stick in the hearts of the minds of all who read my material or redo my study.