That's why I asked God to send me his strongest warriors. Not just the strongest, but the strongest of the strong. Each day is a spiritual battle and those who don't believe that are foolish. The enemy is constantly trying to put doubt in your mind or turn you away fro GOD. So you have to fight for your sanity!
I wasted enough of my years believing in men who claimed to be strong enough to handle me and then when it came time to use the strength that God gave them, they ran away with their tail between their legs like a coward.
I'm done with relationships.
I want what God has for me now. I want adventure. I want to travel. I want to know what it is like to be rich, famous and powerful. I want to know what its like to have complete and full consistent financial stability. I want to be on every runway across the world...
I want more than this quiet boring life. I want a life of adventure:
I want to go to a place where the gift of beauty and intelligence that God blessed me with will be appreciated and respected. Where the love, beauty, and power of God can shine out through me and reflect onto all those who see me. So when they walk away from me or take their eyes off of me they will be left with the peace of God and have a deeper yearning to seek God more for themselves.
I'm tired of this boring life. There has to be more than this...