I can not change who God is molding me to be. I rejected it and ran from his call more than I care to admit and now that I am finally ready to walk in Gods' truth, peace and unconditional love. I now must seek him wholeheartedly. I am not better than anyone else, just because I wear pearls on my head or dress up like I'm going to a military ball. Nope. I'm still the same Jalysa. That likes fried rice and watches dragonball Z. The only changes are the ones that God is making in me. He is cleaning me up for his glory and it is long overdue. Thank you Abba, Father for accepting me back into your grace.
My time in Virginia has been nothing short of interesting. Whenever I feel down, God always sends a reminder that he loves me. My passion for the love of God comes from several different places but it mainly comes from, the fact that many times I was suppose to die, but God saved my life. If the enemy did not have my mind, then he tried to give me a heart attack. If he could not get my heart. Then he tried to fill my spirit with demons, to control my body. So, Glory be to GOD for protecting my life and shielding me under his mighty right hand.
God is cleaning me up to be the queen that he called me to be awhile ago. I rejected this call so many times before, because I didn't "feel like" having any responsibility. But, the time for games is long over. And I'm in the right place to practice the lessons that I am learning here and the ones that God sent my spiritual family in NC to teach to me. I am far away from my comfort zone. I am far away from my "home" but God sent people to make feel welcomed, appreciated and loved.
How can I teach Gods' people how to love, if I do not know how to love? To comfort, protect, guide, heal and love (unconditionally) (agape) is what I was created to do. But more than that, I have to stay focused on that. So God has sent his earthly angels to guide me in that process and like I said, I thank God for creating them and I thank God for setting them in my path.